Alas, bodies
Oct. 11th, 2024 09:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dismallyorientedFeels bad having to cw for menstruation when it's like. Just a normal bodily process and I think one that society could do more to talk about regularly. But yknow, I wanna be mindful about the ways other people's dysphoria manifests.
Anyway I think I may have cursed myself. On Wednesday I went to Planned Parenthood for an HRT checkup, and told them my period had stopped entirely, between both T and my nexplanon implant. Then yesterday I ended up having an extended talk with some younger queer folks about tampons and menstruation and dysphoria relating to sex & uteruses.
And then. This morning. Blood on the toilet paper and cramping in my abs. Thanks body. Doing me a real solid here, ha.
I'll be alright but it's always a bit of a dysphoric bummer when it recurs unexpectedly. I'm hoping it'll stay gone for the most part, especially after it was gone for about 6 weeks before? I should probably actually go back to tracking my cycle, to see when it happens and know for sure how much time has elapsed. Deleted all my previous tracked data from the app I used when Roe v Wade got overturned, cuz I was in Alabama at the time. But it probably won't kill me to pick it up again, here and now in Virginia.
The scientist in me is sad for the loss of data. But keeping track of all of it doesn't really affect me in my life now. Maybe trying to eliminate my period will finally push me onto injections. We shall see.
Anyway I think I may have cursed myself. On Wednesday I went to Planned Parenthood for an HRT checkup, and told them my period had stopped entirely, between both T and my nexplanon implant. Then yesterday I ended up having an extended talk with some younger queer folks about tampons and menstruation and dysphoria relating to sex & uteruses.
And then. This morning. Blood on the toilet paper and cramping in my abs. Thanks body. Doing me a real solid here, ha.
I'll be alright but it's always a bit of a dysphoric bummer when it recurs unexpectedly. I'm hoping it'll stay gone for the most part, especially after it was gone for about 6 weeks before? I should probably actually go back to tracking my cycle, to see when it happens and know for sure how much time has elapsed. Deleted all my previous tracked data from the app I used when Roe v Wade got overturned, cuz I was in Alabama at the time. But it probably won't kill me to pick it up again, here and now in Virginia.
The scientist in me is sad for the loss of data. But keeping track of all of it doesn't really affect me in my life now. Maybe trying to eliminate my period will finally push me onto injections. We shall see.
