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Mori: Heads up y'all, I'm doing our tax prep, which means I'm going through all our titles, seeing what sold and what didn't, and deciding what gets weeded. In a week or so, I'm going to be removing the following ebook listings from sale, so if you want them, now is the time to get them:
(Rogan's Aphasia is also barely hanging in there, has been for years; for some reason every once in a while people will buy another copy of it, just BARELY keeping it in the running.)

(Also I figure, just as a note, we do this every year. I tally up everything what sold, and shit that sold less than five copies gets weeded. I'm trying to get us more regular about saying when we're removing something from print, since some folks might miss out otherwise. And hey, if enough copies sell, it'll stay up for other folks!)

oh tumblr ...

Mar. 16th, 2026 05:01 pm
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so new tumblr update is functionally worse version of what cohost did : notes of every new reblog chain with direct post body will now go towards creator of that branch , and not OP . as result , post branches will no longer be visible to one another , and yes , if someone popular make addition , that person will gain all of metrics and completely throw off ability to track post flow

cohost was , at least , much smaller website which de-emphasise numbers to begin with . worst part of this functionality , and something which notice tumblr users in particular complain about , was lack of ability to see into other reblog and comment branches - could sometimes be very finicky to find one exact version again , based on whoever's branch that version come from .

but at least for most part that was just inconvenience - post flow was less necessary to track , as there was no community of TERFs or neo-nazis happy to spread around for less kind reasons , or even just under assumption that no one will notice . but there sure is on tumblr , and popular blogs can not feasibly moderate all of interactions . at least if these things come through OP's notifications as well , then either person can inform each other . if these things do not get seen by OP at all , then there is no way for OP to know , and may get lost in sea of popular blog's many other notifications , unless popular blogs choose to no longer say anything - whether joke , share knowledge , or correct misinformation .

and even just from look at how this show up on other blogs , this make no fucking sense - many posts in entire reblog chains have " 0 notes " . is this broken already ? tumblr , is this broken already ? tumblr be honest , this is fucking broken already . 

The Secret Legion

Mar. 16th, 2026 09:49 am
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This is a messy post about death and love.

content warning: abuse. )

marked as spam on itch ?

Mar. 15th, 2026 08:47 pm
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speculation . mostly notice that page comments do not go through right now , and game jam possibly behave strangely - will only appear under some contexts , not all . ( for example , in jams joined but not jams hosted , and not on public calendar , even though list as public . )

also not sure if games can be downloaded properly - recently encounter suspicious download warning on someone else for first time based on uploader's account activity , and wonder if anyone face this on kossai game pages , can not really do proper test . 

more and more glad to have mirrors on neocities . if somehow get flag as spam for crime of improper english , will actually be furious . 
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i finished the discworld book thief of time last week. really good. believe that takes me to the end of the death books within the series so i'm gonna take a little break from discworld for a while and make other progress on my tbr. 

i appreciate that susan got a semihuman love interest at the end (and i bet their babies will be so fucked up metaphysical) but i was sort of under the impression, i'm not sure why, that she was going to find some way to get with the time-displaced dude from the first book she shows up in. 

one of the things i like about discworld is how things like death and time and chaos aren't fixed, they change with society because they're products of belief. i may have mentioned this when i posted about hogfather as well but idk i think it's neat. 

dunno. don't really have a lot else to say here. i got a tattoo today? i've been coping with the death of my best friend by spending more money than i really should? this week at work i excitingly only have three days i go into the office? i really need to get groceries? yeah. this is where im at rn

shezow video edits

Mar. 15th, 2026 10:17 am
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since neocities can not take mp4 files , and can not find way to embed tumblr videos , will just have to do this in boring way because most definitely not upload to youtube . :P
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1.
I'd love for the weather to settle down; over the last week I think I've had... two days of feeling Actually Definitely Human, two days of feeling terrible (weather-linked migraines yay), and the rest in muted tiredness where I'm like "well this is tolerable but still not good." Tomorrow evening is when the next storm is supposed to hit here, which means probably both tomorrow and Tuesday are going to be very "haha you wanted to have a brain? and function?" days, which is frustrating but... so it goes, shall manage.

2.
[community profile] seasonalremix's due date for works came by yesterday and everyone got things in on time! It's delightful! I'm excited for the remixes to be revealed next week so everyone can see them!

If you're interested in participating in the next round, sign-ups will open next week and we're currently inviting people to suggest tropes to add to our trope list.

3.
Yesterday afternoon a friend organized a party that was six people (inclusive of them) who had all gone to college together (not all in the same year, but I think we all overlapped by at least one year) and one person who (a) knows me and the organizing friend well and (b) has a house that's good for hosting groups. Fascinating set of people. Mostly we played board/card games! And learned that we could understand the rules for Four Doors (co-op game about gathering relics and lighting a beacon), a game none of us had played before (and which was very fun; would play again. the last round was especially delightful as we worked out how to min-max our way to finishing the game in one turn rather than three. and by "we" I mean "one other friend and I, as the people who understood the rules and Cared A Lot"), more easily than Zounds (Shakespearean Go Fish with a few extra rules, more or less), a game which... also none of us had played before but you'd think that "it's basically Go Fish" would be more comprehensible. xD (Unsurprisingly, the Shakespeare nerd who owned that game won it even before the extra points for completing the quotes on the cards were tallied up.)

It's also a bit... mm, I hadn't seen two of those friends since graduating, pretty much? So it's been like a decade? (Might've seen them once or twice in passing since then, but not for an extended time?) But yeah, nah, fundamentally we're still the same kind of people/friends as back then, despite that time. Just one of those things where you have a bunch of introverts and only sometimes can manage the whole "keep in touch when an external force isn't maintaining that connection for you" thing.

(Also I think that the Zounds thing of "the person who goes first is the person who most recently acted in a play" should've been expanded to "person who most recently played a ttrpg/larped" for that group, since that would've gotten it to something that happened in the last month rather than something from uh over a decade ago. xD Whatever, we can Play By The Rules I Guess since people did have an answer for that. But I think that roleplaying games are Close Enough when you've got a group of nerds who are mostly not theater nerds but who have, at some point, played a ttrpg...)

4.
[personal profile] hafnia wrote me a 15k story as a celebration of two years of friendship. <3 Unsurprisingly, I adore it (it was written for me! by someone who knows me very well! with like zero input from me other than "idk, you could write me wingfic?", a thing that she was like "well YEAH OBVIOUSLY" about, so it's like no input at all xD) (she's going to be like YOU HAD INPUT and yeah I guess but it was all "yeah that sounds good <3" and "yesssss :3" and the like) and I would like more people to read it.

The fuzzy line between intimate friendship and romance! Knowing where you fit in each other's lives! Finding balance between two lifestyles which might seem incompatible at first glance! Wings! Art and language and community!
The Winged City (Original Work, 15k, F/NB, rated E for "oh yeah there's a short sex scene in there" but mostly it's T-rated FEELINGS)

5.
Have some more Mouse <3 I think it's funny that this chapter is one I'm calling "The Voyage" and it has been 2.6k and the ship has not yet departed on said voyage. This is fine. The vibe/focus is still accurate, and I'm almost to the ship taking its leave...
Mouse orbits the atrium. The priest watches from their vestibule, but Mouse knows when their attention turns away, the priest satisfied that Mouse knows the rites and is comfortable performing them alone. There is ease in them, a kind of dance as they make their bows and sign their wishes—words being too easily overheard—to the symbols of the moon’s many phases. The entryway is the closed eye; opposite it is the open one. The walls between are lined with other doors framed with idols, most of which would open into full shrines to the god’s aspects.

They halt at the moon’s open eye, which here—in a city of contracts and arguments of truth—is considered the primary aspect of the Lord of the Moon. Mouse doesn’t know if they believe that. The closed eye is the one they turn too most often, but right now…

“Your eye is upon me,” they murmur, and hear it ripple through the open chamber and up the tower to the god’s ears. “May it continue to bring me good fortune.”

To say anything else here, where the priest listens as well as the god, would be too much. Mouse bows again, then continues their unhurried honoring of every phase of Jiraci Mooneye. They are all one, in the end, and Mouse cannot say for certain which showed him House Ilizana’s sigil and thus the path to a new life.

When they return to the entryway, the closed eye of the god inset in onyx above it, the priest says, “Walk in the moon’s light, sibling mine.”

“I’d rather walk in the moon’s shadow,” Mouse says, and for a moment they think the priest will scold them.

Instead, the priest laughs. “Perhaps one day I will see you wearing his eyelid as a cloak,” they say. “May he watch over you until you find your path.”

Mouse turns to face the priest, unsettled, but their eyes are closed and a smile peaceful on their face as if they’ve been dozing the whole time.

There is nothing to be done but to make their final prayers—May your shadow be warm and welcoming, may those who wish ill upon me overlook my presence, may my footsteps be quiet and my eyes open to the night’s mysteries—before they exit to rejoin Rhei in the city’s streets.

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Mar. 14th, 2026 04:45 pm
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I keep feeling like I should be documenting the Plural Appocalypse of 2026, just so it's all in one place for posterity, but every time I think about doing it, I feel like shriveling up and dying. Bleh. Hope all those Reddit threads and announcement posts aren't going anywhere.

tl;dr: Simply Plural announced its shutdown like a week ago, Ampersand announced a hiatus not long after, Octocon announced a shutdown this morning, all for the same reasons (because being a solo dev for a project used by a community as volatile as the plural community is hell). With that we've seen a tremendous number of people announcing that they're going to be making replacement apps, as well as some already-made replacements, but uh, we'll see how long they last. In the meantime, this is a great time to share advice about front-tracking, records-keeping, and front disclosure using analog methods, generic note apps, or anything else that doesn't rely upon highly specialized apps.

for dystopia reasons this is joke

Mar. 14th, 2026 05:36 pm
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need technology to get smart enough to know exactly when kossai actually intend to hit that button or not . so many mistakes just because fingers decide to double click , swap right and left clicks , or scroll one space too far ... sometimes all of these in combination . current accessibility features can only go so far when hit intended buttons in intended ways , but just on accident

as signed by kossai who just , in minecraft , kill rabbit through accidental extrusion of 9000 blocks . axiom mod give and axiom mod take . :(

spring clean !

Mar. 13th, 2026 06:45 pm
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start to restructure some of introductory stuff because , need to face , this become neglected spaghetti again . :P post is now set to private , and will have to tidy up main pin to match . 

come to think more that some of this do not really need to be in introduction to begin with - not that this is all super private , or else would not share to public in first place , but just no longer feel need to have explanation front and centre . with physical nonhumanity in particular , do not really want to feel as if try and justify to others - and think explanations tend to fall short no matter what simply because others do not already have this exact experience . 

but hey , can show off this fun little song page now !

ponder again about dream lucidity

Mar. 12th, 2026 08:59 pm
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start to think that maybe try too hard to make things happen in lucid dreams .

at one point talk about dream in which fail to open door with telekinesis . remember that first instinct of how to cast telekinesis was theatrical - take power stance , one leg forward and one back , with wavy magical hands . when that fail , next instinct was to strain , as if this was incredibly physical task . and still , this did not work , and eventually reach forward to just open normal-kinetically .

in more recent dream , where forcibly shapeshift one of dream characters , that falter and leave in hybrid state . first instinct of how to cast this force-shapeshift was to focus intensely on character's original form , and so when that inevitably fade from memory , so too did control over character . could no longer focus intently enough to just finish job , and lose lucidity . 

but when actually look back on very first success of lucid dream , in which ... well , no way to put this lightly , summon in character to viciously make out with , there was no effort taken in this . did not have to struggle and build character from ground up . no , process there was simple . first step , think about character . second step , look away from current position . third step , look back , and now character was simply just there to do anything which please . 

then many years later , there was time that become lucid during nightmare , and understandably want to get out . solution there was just about as simple - think of new location , and spin around once to be sent there . 

... of course , if this is core of problem , then have to step back and understand how get here in first place - and think that is just because simple solutions do not feel as satisfactory as all these theatrics . there is no way to harness these abilities when in front , and some courtiers do truly miss abilities like this , so only way to use when front is through dreams . when natural motions of these abilities do not work , theatrical ones become more and more pronounced , until eventually just need to give up . 

but maybe just need to look away , and look back . 

uhh journal game jam

Mar. 12th, 2026 12:22 pm
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not sure how to actually do this kind of stuff , but also really want to do this for months now - and after really weird wonky day have feeling that just need to do this , get some more fun faerie inspiration out in world . 

so yeah ! fairy-faerie journal jam , or like , FFJJ - just casual little thing . realise some people make things like birthday jams which is possibly most self-indulgent that jam can be , and those get submissions because people just like to make things , so hopefully this can get at least 1 non-kossai submission . 

quick natter

Mar. 11th, 2026 05:52 pm
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never once use simply plural , so really have no perspective on shutdown or just how important this is , but this kind of thing is pretty big contributor to why prefer simplest forms of things possible . know even that is not always viable but like , honestly try complex solutions for things in past and always just give more trouble than worth . rather just stick with spreadsheets , obsidian vaults , even straight text files and information encoded into filenames . file types that do not rely on one single program and hopefully will not see obsoleted within lifetime ...

wish there was more of that widespread instead of all these hyper-specific apps that might shut down at any moment . flexible templates for solutions that already exist , and hopefully will continue to exist .

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Mar. 10th, 2026 01:07 pm
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[Phosphor] The more I interact with software, the more I'm convinced that app making is a kind of trap.

In the wake of Simply Plural being sunsetted, I'm seeing a lot of people announcing that they're going to make a new plural app. And don't get me wrong - I think it's good to have options. I don't want to dissuade people from trying new things. But I genuinely don't think many of these people know what they're getting into, especially the people who say that their future app is also going to have online functionality and social features.

See, a lot of non-devs and novice devs think that making an app is a one-and-done kind of deal. You have to write a bunch of code and get it working and that's a lot of work, but once you're done, you're done, right? WRONG.

For one thing, scope creep is a thing. It's so easy to get overambitious with your featureset, and even if you rein yourself in, your users will inevitably want more. Some of their requests will be unreasonable, some will be reasonable, and either way, you'll be stuck developing until the end of time if you try to fulfill them all.

Let's say you're good at saying no, though. Let's say you succeed at implementing every feature you want and you won't add any more. Now you're done, right? NOPE. Because software doesn't exist in isolation. Your apps run on a phone or on a browser or on a desktop, and all of these change, and more often and more significantly than you'd think. Phones especially are vicious about change - I can't begin to count the number of times I've gone to install an app only to find that it won't work on newer versions of Android, or the times I've installed a phone update only to find that suddenly parts of an app's UI are now broken because they got shoved off the screen or whatever. (And it's not just an Android problem - this happens on iOS, too!) Browsers and desktops tend to be less dramatic, but they also still change. Either way, you will have to continue updating your app to make sure it works on every platform you've developed it for, with no end in sight. Are you ready for that commitment? Are you especially ready for that commitment when it involves making your app work for over a dozen different models of phone that you don't own, where your only way of knowing what's going on is incredibly vague bug reports from your very non-technical users?

And if your app has any kind of server and database, the load only increases, because that's something else that you have to maintain. People are always finding novel ways to break shit, or break into shit. Are you prepared to deal with your servers suddenly going down at 3 in the morning? How about while you're across the country? Do you have a game plan for if someone hacks into your database and steals all of your users' data? Because I promise there will be jerks who will do all that for a laugh, especially if you're hosting a service for a group as stigmatized as the plural community. Can you tolerate always being on edge, always being vigilant for some new disaster, especially as your userbase grows from a few dozen to hundreds to thousands to more?

And if you plan to have any way for your users to interact with each other, are you prepared for the inevitable moderation nightmares? Do you have a way for users to report issues to you and a way to verify their claims? Do you have a plan to prevent problem users from just reregistering after they're banned? Can you tolerate witnessing some of the most vile shit in the world, up to and including literal CSAM? Are you prepared to make agonizing calls on gray-and-gray situations where no one is wrong and no one is right and everyone is hurt? Are you prepared for people to take every decision you make with the worst possible faith, to outright lie about you and to uncritically believe those lies?

And in addition to the maintenance work, servers cost money. Hosting images especially costs so much money. Do you have a plan for funding them that isn't just "keep paying for them out of the goodness of your own heart?" (Because shit happens, and all it takes is one career loss, one accident, one medical emergency to wipe out your savings.) If you're providing the service for free with an optional subscription, are you sure people will choose to pay you? Are you prepared to wrangle payment processor bullshit? Reports (both truthful and not) from users of their subscriptions malfunctioning? Are you ready for people to make bullshit claims about how you're an evil capitalist profiting off a marginalized community when you're not even fucking making enough to cover operational costs, let alone to live off of?

You might say, "well, that is a lot of work, but I won't be doing it alone. I'll bring on other people to help." Cool! Can you trust those people? Like, can you trust these people as coworkers and not just as friends? Can you trust them to not abuse their position? To keep their professional cool when users get impatient? To not gossip about sensitive information and to not accidentally let slip important development credentials? Do you have a plan for if a user comes to you with reports that one of your staff has been abusive? Do you have a plan for handling conflict between team members, including conflict that involves you? Do you have a plan for if a key team member gets hit by a bus? Do you have a plan for if you get hit by a bus?

(Also, don't even think of using generative AI. All the environmental and labor issues aside, genAI is not anywhere near enough to replace a skilled developer. It's more akin to a glorified autocomplete. Autocomplete might save you the effort of writing a few words, but it is not capable of thinking critically about the meaning you want to convey. So too with code - good code is not just a collection of scripts, but a collection of decisions about structure, data, and tradeoffs. Generative AI cannot make those decisions with any amount of reliability. And you should trust it with moderation even less than you should trust it with code.)

And finally, what about you? Health, money, time, motivation - none of these are guaranteed to continue into the future. You may lose your job, if you had one to begin with. You may lose your housing, if you had any to begin with. You may become disabled in new ways. You may just burn out, after years of dealing with more demands, more problems, more petty conflicts. Can you keep going, even then? And if not, do you have a plan for getting out?

This doesn't even cover everything. I'm positive that if I sat here I could think of so many other Ongoing Things. And again, like, I can't control what anyone does. If you truly in your heart want to make A New Plural App, then I won't stop you. But please, take some time to really think about what you're getting into. Go in with a plan, at the very least.

(At some point I might expand this into an essay about resource-making in general. I just really needed to get my thoughts as Someone Who Did Software For A Job out there.)

another failure of dream lucidity

Mar. 10th, 2026 11:22 am
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after many years of journal out dreams , of course see patterns in dream language , and knowledge of those patterns can help to become lucid . unfortunately , can rarely do anything with that lucidity .

exhibit 937 : gain lucidity after realisation that computer continue to fuck up , despite apparently fix problem , which is surefire dream sign - technology never work right , even when there is no reason to not . decide to take advantage of this , and shapeshift dream character into miensona to get new outfit design ideas . unfortunately this character just turn into broken hybrid of original appearance and miensona , then manage to lose lucidity and go right back into normal dream state in completely different scenario . 

worst part is , can not even remember what that character look like , either in original or hybrid form . entirely useless for inspiration ! have to wonder why lucidity is so hard to control . non-fronters can literally edit parts or weave entire dreams , but fronter lucidity is absolutely useless . 

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